So I am a huge fan of tattoos and I think it is a really kool (yes I know its spelled with a C) art form. But unfortunately tattoos are often times extremely controversial which I totally understand and I myself hate when someone gets a lot of tattoos that have no meaning to them. I have 5 so far and I will most likely get a couple more later down the road. But, each one of my tattoos have a meaning.
- My elephant: so, I went through a year of very bad depression. Only one person really knew I was sad. For any of those who have had depression you know how difficult it can be to get through. It was so bad I thought about suicide several times and at that piont I didn't even know why I was sad anymore but I am a person of strong will and I woke up one morning and decided this girl is not me...slowly but surley I changed. So about a month after I realized I wasn't myself my mom decided she wanted to move again except this time to the beach and I was perfectly fine with that for once. So, after a couple months being in the new place my new friend (now Fiance) got another tattoo and I decided I wanted my first one. So, I asked my mom (I was 17 at the time) if I could and she said yes! I got an elephant because they are my favorite animal and they represent strength and wisdom so everytime I am sad look down at my ellie and remember I am stong, I can do this, you want to live. It reminds me that if I got through depression I can do anything.
- My music notes: so, this one is a much happier story. My family and I are huge music lovers. We have to have music in our lives or we would probably die. Plus I have some singers and musicians in the family. My dad is a singer a damn good one and well actually so is my mom. Plus they are amazing songwritters. My great uncle Gary played guitar, harmonica, and more. And my aunt is a killer singer. The kind that breaks hearts. Plus my mom and I are dancers which is based around music. Unfortunatley, my family lives in different states and my uncle died a few years back so I got the music notes behind my ear so my family will always be with me as long as I have music in my ear:)
- My bible verse: So, if anyone reading this has had depression you know how hard it is to not go to that dark place agin. I still struggle with it. Sometimes I don't even know why I am feeling down. But when I got so depressed the first time I started praying...like all the time. And one day I was looking for a specific bible verse (can't remember why or which one) but instead I found "God is not finished with me yet." Philippians 1:6. When I read it I got reminded that God has a plan for me and he will help me through all my struggles no matter what and if its not ok its not the end God will fix it he's not done yet.
- Deathly Hallows: sooo.....I am probably the biggest Harry Potter fans you will ever meet. This tat was one of those welll since I'm herrree kinda things. I have read all the books and watched all the movies too many times to count. I just love the story and there are so many life lessons hidden inside each book. I remeber going to see the first movie in theaters when I was little with my mom AND dad which back then was like winning the lottery. My mom and dad never really got along and they divorced when I was young so everytime the three of us did something together without WWIII was something special. There's only a handful of those times that I can remember.
- Sea Shell: This one is my most recent, about two weeks old, still in the healing process. This one is for my mama. We both are a bit obsessed with collecting sea shells and its been that way ever since I was little everytime we went to a beach. The beach is definatley my happy place. This shell also reminds me of The Little Mermaid which is one of my favorite Disney movies. I had a phase when that was the only movie I wanted to watch and I remember when I was little my daddy used to sing me the songs...he could sound just like Sebastian. "sha lal lala la la kiss the girl." But I just realized this about the shell recently that it reminded me of that. I got it for my mom and I'm hoping she will get one to match.
SO THERE'S MY STORY BEHIND EACH TATTOO. I SAY THEY ARE MY SCARS BECAUSE WELL, FOR STARTERS THEY ARE LITERALLY SCARS. THEY HAVE TO HEAL AND WHAT IS LEFT BEHIND IS A SCAR. BUT ALSO, THEY REPRESENT SOMETHING THAT SCARRED ME IN SOME WAY, GOOD OR BAD AND I WILL HAVE IT THERE FOREVER ON MY HEART AND NOW MY BODY.